Monday, March 30, 2015

Writing my PhD thesis

Handing in my PhD thesis to the University of Exeter
Over the years I have found that saying you are doing a PhD can be taken one of two ways by people; 'that sounds fancy you must be a genius or something' or simply 'why?'. The former are never trying to put you on a pedestal, and the later are not trying to get you on the defensive, but the dichotomy is sometimes difficult to deal with.

During the course of a PhD you are continuously finding out things that you, or anyone else, never knew before. That is the point, to present unique and new research at the end of it all. But this simultaneously puts you in the state of not knowing anything with impostor syndrome playing a big role in academia. No where does this become more evident to you than when you have to write it all up in your PhD thesis.

It is an all consuming process, even if you try very hard for it to not be. It is now the end of March and I have just handed in my PhD thesis titled: 'cloudy with a chance of water'. It is a short 181 page document outlining a majority of the work that I have conducted as a scientific researcher at the University of Exeter over the last 3 1/2 years. A PhD in the UK is a very learn on the job kind of endeavour, and it is an experience that seems remarkably unique to each person considering we are all going for the same thing.

A PhD is so different for different people, this is not intended as a formula to writing a thesis, nor is it to say that you should be able to work this way as well. Merely a document of my experience and process through it all and I hope that in a little way it can be reassuring or simply informative to people going through the same process now or in the future, and perhaps a little nostalgia kick for people who have already gone through this all before.

The write-up, I suppose, officially started November 2014, giving me five months to complete and hand-in. That seems about normal. Though some people if needed have been able to write up in less than three weeks, or take over a year. The write up is a weird process and it really depends on the work you have done as to the final format that process takes. Some people have one large project that takes the whole PhD to complete and no papers can be written before the whole thing is done, so the write up is one long detailed story. Others do lots of little projects that form multiple papers as they go through their PhD which can then be stapled together in a vague order to be examined on. My fell somewhere in the middle of these two.

My makeshift desk at my parents place over  Christmas
with the obligatory bottle of wine
Over the course of my PhD I have worked on a fair few projects all focused around one thing. Because my work looked at observational data (experiment) and analytical studies (theory) the hardest thing for me felt like the definition of the narrative that would bring these together. It was a long time before I could work out where my first observational paper would slot into the whole story as most of the first part of my thesis would focus on the new technique we were using which was developed after the first paper went out. I wanted it to read more like a book where the introduction to each thing appeared as you went along rather than all lumped into the introduction where you would have to flick back to remember what you had read. Once this was all in place it just took a little bit of work to get the right words in place. The section and sub-section headings changing right up to the week of submission. I just had a look back through my files and it appears the first figure created specifically for the thesis was made on December 8th so it was a least a month in before I had any idea where I was going with things.

'Write drunk, edit sober.'

All of your writing will be crap the first time you put it together. The important part is that you let your mind relax and spill onto the page all of the different ideas you want to incorporate into the work. The sentences don't need to make sense at this point you just need a vague idea of what needs to be there. I can't even count the number of bottles of wine I drank over the Christmas break working at my parents place on the makeshift desk they set up for me in the front room so I could work whenever I had a spare minute. In fact on new years eve my Father and I were child sitting round my sisters house watching The Newsroom drinking a LOT while I was typing up the analysis process I go through for each of my observations. Unfortunately for the wine industry the drinking tailed off considerably for the write-up towards the last few months as I edited the structure and formed slightly more coherent sentences from the waffle.

But I cannot stress this enough: just because you are writing up does not mean that life has to stop and you cannot take time for fun. Go out with your friends, take an evening to do nothing but watch Netflix, celebrate birthdays and holidays when you can.

The majority of comments I have had over the last few months are along the lines of 'you seem so calm', 'she is the calmest PhD student I have ever met', and 'it's annoying that you not panicking right now'. That last one came from my friend and housemate who handed in his PhD thesis in Feb and passed his viva in March. There was a distinct moment when his brain went into panic mode over the write-up and a point a month before hand-in that a constant state of stress seemed to kick in, so everyone was just waiting for me to go nuts I suppose.

Top Female Scientist Card Game 
Now I am not saying that I was calm all the way through. There were definitely some bouts of absolute panic and immense amounts of self doubt, but I did what I always do and gave myself something else to channel my worry and stress onto. If you know me or have seen me at work you will immediately notice the slight air of chaos surrounding my desk. It is not just the piles of post-it notes of every color, or the piles of papers and pens all over the place; it is the tiny person sitting there arms flailing looking for something or running off to one meeting or another grabbing something seemingly random as she ruses past you. I only wish I had gotten a picture before I decided to clean it all up after hand-in, but it seems every photo I have has been carefully framed to minimise the amount of mess visible.

I need to be constantly distracted to get anything done. I know it seems strange, I find it strange too. But you know how it helps to have the background noise of a coffee shop to get work done? Well I need that ten-fold. If I do not have people moving around me and talking or something playing on the TV or a series of tasks to complete I will find it very hard to sit down and get one single thing done. There was one point where I had my two laptops playing different things with two separate sets of headphones in and a video on mute on my monitor just so I could concentrate and remember what I was working on. And the only reason I was allowed to have two laptops from work in the first place was that my first laptop, Louie, decided that it could not cope with the multitude of tasks I require to perform simultaneously any more.

Photos from the Solar Eclipse Viewing Party 
on March 20th at the University of Exeter
That said a lot of my normal routine fell to the wayside during the final few months. I have not kept up with any of my TV shows, save one or two, and a week for me is normally set around which ones I need to watch next. I have little to no idea what movies are out, have been out, or are coming out. All of my departmental 'social secretary' roles were handed out to other, younger people to take over, I relinquished my keys to the boathouse and passed on my turn on the bar rota at the local scuba diving club. But saying all of this makes it sound dramatic. I did make sure to hold onto some things, Simon and I kept producing The Science Hour on XpressionFM right up to the last week before hand-in. We also created a Top Female Scientist Card Game that went viral and are now mass printing sets to send to schools. And for some strange reason I decided that it would be a good time to organise a Solar Eclipse Viewing Party at the university. Well that one is not entirely my fault on the timing as I have no control over such celestial events.

All of these served as happy distractions so that my thesis work became the thing I did when I was taking a break rather than the other way round.

It is strange but since the write-up life has got fuller not emptier. I spend more time with my friends happy to do nothing for a while, I am more relaxed and content than before. I just hope I can find something to distract me in the next month so I don't freak out about the impending examination viva.



The following are my Acknowledgements from my thesis, and in sharing them here now, I think it sums up what I was trying to explain above.

"None of this would have been possible without the financial support of the UK Science & Technology Facilities Council (STFC). The research leading to these results has also received funding from the European Research Council under the European Union's Seventh Framework Programme (FP7/2007-2013) / ERC grant agreement no. 336792. 
Okay, now that we have the formalities out of the way it is time for the juicy bits. I have so many people to thank for their support throughout this doctoral endeavour so I shall attempt to do so here. This is for the people who will likely not read any further, save scanning the witty quotes marring each new chapter. Yet, for all of you I am still profoundly grateful.
To all who have ever shared an office with me, sorry, but I do believe that I warned each and every one of you in advance. I am especially thankful to Emily who stopped me from freaking myself out by allowing me to worry about her. Also, to Paul, the time vampire that he is, Tom Evans and Tiffany whose knowledge and patience far exceed that of my own. 
To all the goofballs in the Astrophysics group who for some reason allowed me to take over and dictate their lives for a few nights a month/week. It has been a fantastic few years and for the most part it kept a smile on my face. 
To Alex Pettitt, Moncho, and Simon who aided in my productive procrastination and helped me shout science to the world, I am definitely going to miss it. I am also thankful to Matthew Bate who gave me the confidence and belief that I could get away with it in the first place. 
To Andrew for enabling the crazy, Jon for joining in with the crazy, and Tom Wilson for embracing the crazy, I am sure he is still trying to convince himself that he knew what he was getting into. To David Amundsen who has been there through it all and even had to live with me to boot, I (and my family) cannot thank you enough so I will just say `Well done sir, well done'. 
My penultimate thanks goes to my supervisor David Sing. The freedom and genuine support that you have given me over the last few years taught me how to be a scientist and for that I cannot repay you, I only hope to one day pass it on down the line. 
Finally, to my family who always encouraged me to do whatever the hell I wanted, within reason of course, and never wavered in their support and pride. That, and our shared love of Stargate, could not have done this without Stargate. "






Monday, March 2, 2015

Solar Eclipse Viewing Party


It was an amazing event. Thank you to everyone who came along you were all perfect (only got a minor shout down from the health and safety team for how many of you there were). Here are just a few of the photos taken on the day. I may put an album together at some point.

Science!




On March 20th the moon will pass almost directly between the Earth and the Sun causing a Solar eclipse, which will be visible from the UK, with the moon obscuring 90% of the Sun between ~8-11am

Here at the University of Exeter, we are holding our own Solar Eclipse Viewing Party for the local community, from 8-11 near the Forum on the Streatham Campus.  It has a fantastic view south, which offers the perfect view of the morning sun.  At the event there will be a big range of ways for everyone to safely view the sun with a range of different cameras, projections, and glasses, provided by the Astrophysics Group which is helping run the event. They will even have their radio telescope pointed at the sun to record the signal from the Sun as the moon steadily blocks it out. If you are not able to come along yourself you can tune into the XpressionFM, found at 87.7FM, who will be broadcasting live throughout the morning and have compiled a special eclipse playlist with The Science Hour team taking you through the events as they unfold. 


We have a huge number of ways that you can safely view the eclipse event so come along and get involved in this unique opportunity.
 Facebook event page

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Top Female Scientists Card Game

Hannah Wakeford and Simon Clark, showcase the
Top Female Scientist Game they created.
Over the last month or so my co-host of The Science Hour on XpressionFM, Simon Clark, and I have
been developing a comparative card game of some of the greatest Female Scientists throughout history.

There are 32 in total across maths, physics, biology, chemistry and geology - where each card has characteristics of Innovation, Impact, Obscurity and Badassery as well as a short biography. We hope that while the public will enjoy playing the game and hopefully learn about the scientists covered, our real goal is for the cards to be used as a classroom tool - specifically to encourage girls to engage with science. Many girls are put off studying science at school because they perceive it to be a very male-dominated subject, and one problem in particular is that they seem unaware of the female heritage in science. Most people can't name more than 5 or 6 famous female scientists, and yet some stellar women have contributed so much to our understanding of science. So we wanted to try and correct that.

I am really proud of these cards and I think that they are a great way to get students of any gender involved in science. There is a huge history of scientists that we are not aware of and this is just scratching the surface of some of the most amazing scientists that have graced our world.

You can find Simon and myself on Twitter (@simonoxfphys@stellarplanet) for more posts, or follow the #XSH.
To download your own copy you can get them here for free!

Imgur Album




You can also listen to The Science Hour whenever and wherever you are via our online archive



We also produced a promo video which can be found on our Facebook page for #XSH

Facebook Page for The Science Hour on XpressionFM




We have also now been featured on Buzzfeed - Thank you to Lane Sanity for writing up the article
http://www.buzzfeed.com/lanesainty/science-sisters-doin-it-for-themselves?utm_term=.iyOAY5pVq


You can also check us out assembling over 200 packets of our Top Female Scientist Cards in this time-lapse set to the Benny Hill music - just watch out for the bit where we all sync up in height order - mesmerising!


In addition for those of you who enjoy 'internetting' here are the links to our Reddit posts

Feminism
http://www.reddit.com/r/Feminism/comments/2w8v13/i_made_a_deck_of_top_female_scientists_cards_we/

Ladies of Science
http://www.reddit.com/r/LadiesofScience/comments/2wamiu/my_friend_and_i_created_a_deck_of_top_female/

XXSTEM
http://www.reddit.com/r/xxstem/comments/2wan6g/my_friend_and_i_created_a_deck_of_top_female/

Everything Science
http://www.reddit.com/r/EverythingScience/comments/2wb06n/new_top_trumps_deck_made_to_showcase_womens_role/

Science Teachers
http://www.reddit.com/r/ScienceTeachers/comments/2wjuok/a_friend_and_i_made_a_deck_of_top_trumps_cards_to/

Physics
https://www.reddit.com/r/Physics/comments/2wcfha/we_made_a_deck_of_top_female_scientist_cards_for/


Wednesday, November 26, 2014

The Exoplanet Playlist

Our S02E09 episode of The Science Hour on XpressionFM was focused on exoplanets and the work that is being done around the world to investigate these strange new worlds. And as such I enlisted the help of twitter to find us the playlist for the show. As everyone came up with so many suggestions I thought I would put together the exoplanet playlist for everyone.



EXOPLANETEERS PLAYLIST

Earthbound - Our own little planet has many, many songs written about it but these are two which I think were more radio show worthy, and I just really enjoy the title of the Foster the People song, not much room for interpretation on that one.
  1. Jamiroquai - Planet Home
  2. Foster the People -  A Beginners Guide to Destroying the Moon

Martian - There are a lot of songs with Mars in the title or related to the red planet but these were the ones chosen
  1. Bowie - Life on Mars
  2. Misfits - I Turned into a Martian

The Solar System - Again loads of songs to choose from here. The first thing that came to my mind was Drops of Jupiter by Train, but I was pleasantly surprised by the Hendrix - Valleys of Neptune to represent our outer solar system.
  1. Stevie wonder - Saturn
  2. Jimi Hendrix - Valleys of Neptune
  3. Tinie Tempah - Children of the Sun

Detection - The starlight we use to detect exoplanets can be interpreted from these song titles. That's the way I am taking them anyway. As pointed out by one suggestion on Twitter the song 'True Colors' could be used to signify the emission spectra of exoplanets where we are able to detect their true visible color spectrum.
  1. Bruce Springsteen - Blinded by the Light
  2. Kanye West - All of the Lights
  3. Phantom Planet - One Ray of Sunlight
  4. Phill colins - True Colors

Exolanets - This is slightly harder. The word exoplanets has not yet made it into song titles. But these ones can be used as a loose interpretation of alien worlds or planets themselves (though some I assume are referring to our solar system we can give them a broader context here).
  1. Aladdin - A Whole New World
  2. Stevie Nicks - Planets of the Universe
  3. Avenged Sevenfold - Planets
  4. Flaming Lips - Watching the Planets

Random - While the Beastie Boys song does start with the statement 'Intergalactic planetary' and repeats it over and over again for the 'chorus' it becomes a little more abstract on the subject from then on but still warrants a mention. Another song that nicely fits in here is Debutante by 65 Days of Static which was suggested by a friend on Twitter and is a beautiful instrumental track which certainly takes on a spacey quality to it.
  1. Beastie Boys - Intergalactic
  2. 65 Days of Static - Debutante (No Man's Sky)



What's on your Exoplanet playlist?




And if you want to listen to the whole show and hear the songs we selected and some truly atrocious segues then enjoy. (or try our Soundcloud link)

Friday, October 3, 2014

gizoogle up my science!

This is what happens when you gizoogle.net my abstract for our latest scientific publication

'Transmission spectral properties of clouds for hot Jupiter exoplanets'

"Cloudz have a blingin role up in tha atmospherez of hoodary bodies. Well shiiit, it is expected that, like all tha hoodary bodies up in our solar system, exoplanet atmospheres will also have substantial cloud coverage, n' evidence is mountin fo' cloudz up in a fuckin shitload of bangin' Jupiters. In order ta mo' betta characterise hoodary atmospheres we need ta consider tha effects these cloudz gonna git on tha observed broadband transmission spectra yo. Here we examine tha expected cloud condensate species fo' bangin' Jupiter exoplanets n' tha effectz of various grain sizes n' distributions on tha resultant transmission spectra from tha optical ta infrared, which can be used as a funky-ass broad framework when interpretin exoplanet spectra. We note dat dope infrared absorption features step tha fuck up in tha computed transmission spectrum, tha result of vibrationizzle modes between tha key species up in each condensate, which can potentially be straight-up constraining. While it may be hard ta differentiate between individual condensates up in tha broad transmission spectra, it may be possible ta discern different vibrationizzle bonds, which can distinguish between cloud formation scenarios like fuckin condensate cloudz or photochemically generated species. Put ya muthafuckin choppers up if ya feel dis! Vibrationizzle mode features is shown ta be prominent when tha cloudz is composed of lil' small-ass sub-micron sized particlez n' can be associated wit a accompanyin optical scatterin slope. These infrared features have potential implications fo' future exoplanetary atmosphere studies conducted wit JWST, where such vibrationizzle modes distinguishin condensate species can be probed at longer wavelengths."

and here is the original. I honestly do not know which one to include in my thesis

"Clouds have an important role in the atmospheres of planetary bodies. It is expected that, like all the planetary bodies in our solar system, exoplanet atmospheres will also have substantial cloud coverage, and evidence is mounting for clouds in a number of hot Jupiters. In order to better characterise planetary atmospheres we need to consider the effects these clouds will have on the observed broadband transmission spectra. Here we examine the expected cloud condensate species for hot Jupiter exoplanets and the effects of various grain sizes and distributions on the resultant transmission spectra from the optical to infrared, which can be used as a broad framework when interpreting exoplanet spectra. We note that significant infrared absorption features appear in the computed transmission spectrum, the result of vibrational modes between the key species in each condensate, which can potentially be very constraining. While it may be hard to differentiate between individual condensates in the broad transmission spectra, it may be possible to discern different vibrational bonds, which can distinguish between cloud formation scenarios such as condensate clouds or photochemically generated species. Vibrational mode features are shown to be prominent when the clouds are composed of small sub-micron sized particles and can be associated with an accompanying optical scattering slope. These infrared features have potential implications for future exoplanetary atmosphere studies conducted with JWST, where such vibrational modes distinguishing condensate species can be probed at longer wavelengths."